Every now and then I get a little bit lonely*……
Riley is sick this week and we’ve been sequestered in the house, venturing out only to the chemist or the mail box.
Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears…
Well, his tears, as he’s crying 50% of the time he’s awake. The other 50% he’s on the breast.
Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I’ve got to get out and cry…
On Sunday, I had the house in a pristine state. By Tuesday morning it looked like London during the blitz and nothing, nothing I tried to do could fix it. I’ve had no sleep. Excess caffeine is making me ill, but it’s the only thing making me operate. I’m eating six sandwiches in a sitting, I’m so hungry from all of Riley’s breastfeeding. “It has to stop soon” I say to myself, and then I want to weep because I’m not sure I’m ready.
Then I see Keira staring at us from the couch with reproachful eyes, and I know she’s suffering too, from Riley’s constant irritability.
Every now and then I know you’ll always be the only boy who wanted me the way that I am…
Yet for all my frustration, his cries move me. He scrabbles for my legs and will not let go. His angry gums radiate pain; he is a bundle of raw nerves. His fever burns my skin; I can barely imagine how he feels. He doesn’t want me to; he just wants to be held.
Every now and then I know there’s no one in the universe as magical and wondrous as you ….
My poor, beautiful boy. Get better soon. Please.
Every now and then I know there’s nothing any better and there’s nothing I just wouldn’t do …
Amen Bonnie. Sing it to me loud. You’ll have to at the moment: who needs a wind machine in this house when you’ve got Riley passing it straight from a Dantean circle of hell?
*Total Eclipse of the Heart, Jim Steinman. The man knows how to write a power ballad.
Edited to add: I wrote this two days ago. We turned a corner yesterday afternoon and he is happier now. Well, at least he slept better through the night, which is always a good sign.
11:25 pm
I feel for you! My little boy started throwing up today. It is so not fun to have sick children!
2:33 am
I am so glad he;s doing better. We’ve been there also several times this last few weeks. ust awful….
Nothing more heartbreaking than a wee sick one.
4:22 am
I’m glad your lil guy is doing better. It’s hard when they’re sick.
I was reading those lyrics and I’m all “Hey! I KNOW that song!”
I haven’t thought about it OR Bonnie Tyler in ages but I happened to have seen her last night on some show on VH-1.
4:28 pm
I think Dante could have added a circle in The Inferno. It would be listening to the cries of someone you love, but being unable to help them. I don’t know who particularly would be punished in this way, but it would have to be something pretty serious, because I can’t think of much worse than that. I think all of us Mommies feel your pain. Or have, anyway. Glad he’s doing a bit better.
5:23 pm
Glad to hear he’s feeling better!
8:29 am
Oh thank you ladies. So sweet of you to say